In winter I have been walking alonga  river, just a small one, maybe five meters wide. The surface was frozen and the layer of snow was quite thick. Never found out, if there was a bridge somewhere nearby so I took the risk and steped on the ice. Of course it was quite thrilling becase it’s quite stupid doing that when you don’t know if it’s 100% safe. And just as I passed the half of the route, the ice cracked and i fell into the cold water. It was shocking and everything around me begann getting cold. I was about becoming unconscious. Just before it was too late,  I suddenly got strength and were able to pull myself out the water onto the ice again. Cold and wet i walked to the river’s other shore and were happy I made it.

This was the first dream ever, I’ve been able to understand.
And now it turns out to become true somehow. Of course it’s a matter of perspective.

Last year my dad returned from a business trip in China. He somehow has talked with director of a company and he told me, that he might have a internship opportunity for me. My first thought was actually – what??-  no, thanks but no thanks. But a few months later as my interest in China got awaken, I began to think about it again. Why not, if you have the interest in the culture and the language, then this is a great opportunity and help. So last time in November I accompanied my dad and met this director. He’s quite a fascinating person. We both were talking alot about ourselves and how this internship could work out. Everything sounded nice. And that’s it – that was in November. Even though my dad has contact to him, I never really heard a single word about it. He claims that he is quite busy and feels sorry for that, I do believe him but I amstill in  limbo. Of course i try to keep positive about it but even I have doubts sometimes.
It’s not very motivating.

I just fell into the icy  water but believe me, I don’t like to become unconscious.