As of tomorrow, all work and projects are beeing cancelled. I realized I haven’t pushed myself hard enough recently. One year passed now since i began to learn chinese. First I did it with curiosity, then with fun and now I know I could use it in future. It’s has become something serious now. But still I feel very ashamed for myself not making enough progress even if I could have done so.

Projects have interupted me, I’ve concentrated myself more on the 3D models or chats and now it’s time to change something.

If I am eager to achieve something then I will succed but still sometimes discipline lacks. Suddenly I have a great idea and start working on it and in short time I gathered a bunch of projects here and there. Now I installed a ‘user time controlled’ software to block my computer from Mo-Th till 8pm. Weekend will be open for some freedom. To prevent abusing it, I’ve typed in a random code, printed that one and gave it to everybody in the house except me. In any case they need my printer or PC, they can access or in case I need urgent for some official work stuff or else. I won’t dare to crack the software because if I’ll do, then I will start to reconsider if i’m quite okay in my head 😉

Now I have reorganized my desk. I’ll mainly find my C-Stuff I need to study. Today my former chinese teacher from the university (leaving to another one) gave me the education book for intermediate,s she has written, as a gift. It makes me wanna finish my beginners book as fast as possible and thinking how I shall thank her. Now it’s on my desk, ready to be studied.

I’ve began on my own, got the opportunity to enter the chinese courses at the university learning from a great teacher and now I will continue with more enthusiasm than ever.